knife in her wrist

The knife on her wrist
She smiles in vain
Drowning in sorrow
Remembering pain

She pushes it down
Stopping her tears
Hating her life
Surrounded by fears

She thinks of the life
Growing inside
It's not enough to stop her
She can't continue to hide

She screams out in pain
This time it's too late
She apologizes to the life
For picking its fate

I hate love

I give you my heart-
that's the proof that I love you.
I got hurt when you tossed it back
So now,I don't know how to get through.

Can't you hear me when I'm screamin'?
I'm almost fed-up; I'm tired of those pretending.
You break my heart,you torned it apart.
I really don't know how to have a new start.

You decide that I'm no longer needed,
Soon,you told me it's not what you intended.
I realized, there's many lies in your words
You played with my heart,and I felt that great remorse.

I often told myself that I hate love.
I hated to give all the love I had.
Is it over? I s it through?
Is this "I HATE LOVE" will remain to you?

here with me

Wipe those tears that strained my face,
Take away those pain with your loving embrace,
Hold me tight;please take my hand
because only your touch can ease these pains.

Now we're here;and as I sit in despair,
You comforted me,and it seems that you care
I'm still searching for the right answer,
trying to fill up the pieces of me that shattered.

Under the moonlight,together we'll wander.
Feel the magic of the night as if it seems forever.
Hold me tight. . .never let me go,
Forget your fears,let's pretend we're alone.

My silent screams left unheard,
wishing that this misery will come to its end.
But as long as you're here,I can take all the pain
And I'm still hoping you'll be HERE WITH ME again.

torture

The tidal waves of emotions
blazing;as if trying to kill
As it causes bulimic suffocation
Who will tell that this is not real?
The deadly look that you cast upon me
was like arrows shot in the air
with the poison that in my heart won't prevail.
Swords of hatred stabbed my back,
creating wounds right through my weakened soul.
Catapult pounds my heart and shattered it like ashes]
I've tried to seek,but didn't find the missing pieces.
My vampire heart bleeds,
blood spilled onto the ground as it breaks.
and from my eyes,black tears kept falling,
gleaming;as if the brilliance of a broken gem.
Time has nothing to offer.
Even a wound in my heart can't be healed.
The silence. . .
Serenity. . .
. . .is the answer to my obscurity.

cheated

So here's the truth
you were right all along
they were never my friends
and I was living a lie
but I won't fall for it next time
You figured me out
I'm like a leaf in the wind
I try to find who I am
but wind up lost in the end
sometimes it's hard to know what's real when your not
'Cause you know I change myself
to impress whoever happens to be next to me
but I'm sick of trying so hard
waste all your time with me
I know I'm a mess right now
don't give up believe
I'd wait it out for you

half alive-sEcondhand serenAde

It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume 
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own 
I don't know if I'm home 
Or if I lost the way into your room 
I'm spiraling into my doom 
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day 
You and I will be free, 

To live and die by our own rules, 
Free...
Despite the fact that men are fools. 

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try 
And save me. 
It's okay that we're dying, 
But I need to survive tonight, tonight. 

Well excuse me while I get killed softly, 
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay 
At least 'til yesterday, 
You know you got me off my highest guard, 
Believe me when I say it's hard. 
We'll get through this tonight 
And I know one day you and I will be free 

To live and die by our own rules, 
Free...
Despite the fact that men are fools. 

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try 
And save me. 
It's okay that we're dying, 
But I need to survive tonight, tonight. 

And you touch my hand ever so slightly 
Girl we're not ready for this yet
And the deadly look she cast upon me 
I won't regret, I won't regret 
I won't regret. I won't regret... 

And I was trying to disappear, 
But you got me wrapped around you 
I can hardly breathe without you 
I was trying to disappear 
But I got lost in your eyes now, 
You brought me down to size now. 

I'm almost alive 
And I need you to try and save me. 
It's okay that we're dying 
But I need to survive tonight, tonight 
Tonight... 

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try 
And save me. 
It's okay that we're dying, 
But I need to survive tonight, tonight. 
I need to survive tonight, tonight. 

killing in pain

Why do I live for?
Is it for a purpose or just nothing?
Am I just living to feel the pain?
The pain that darkens my day,
And the loneliness which kills me,
Killing me little by little. . .
Eating my soul until it's gone
Ripping it to pieces like a paper.
Why do I live for?
Is it to die, just to feel all the pain?
Or is it . . . I'm living just to. . .
DIE ? ? ?